Procrastination: The desire to do something different. Or to put it more accurately, putting off what you should be doing. The word that best sums up my day…
Leg workout? Ugh. Doing some Excel tax stuff? Ugh x2… Delay, delay delay. Needless to say, today I lost my way.
I did eventually get to both, though. The leg workout wasn’t the best ever, but at least I did it. I didn’t finish the tax stuff, but I did get a start, and that should be enough for a dive deep tomorrow. Nose plugged and all.
But man, I get frustrated with myself when I procrastinate like this. Not having a defined, set schedule definitely has its pitfalls, and having the capability to procrastinate (to my own detriment) is one of them. It doesn’t pay to be unstructured.
You know, it’s funny to hear myself say this now because, when I was younger and working overtime for others, I felt the opposite. I would’ve killed to meander through my day and not have a boatload of urgent tasks to complete. To me, that would be living the high life. In my mind at that point in time, retirees had it made.
It doesn’t really feel like the high life anymore, though. I miss a well-defined structure as it makes for a more efficient use of time. When I like the task (like writing or logic-based coding), it isn’t a problem, but when the task is unenjoyable and I don’t have someone holding me accountable, it’s too easy to put it off for later. And later means a delay in the future work I need to do, too. SO… Not good, not good at all…
That’s one of the main reasons I really miss working with others. I know if I were, my life would be far more structured and far less “procrastinatory” (yeah yeah, not a real word, I know). So, hopefully that time comes soon. In the meantime, though, I’ll just have to do my darndest to stay disciplined even when the task ain’t a blast, and remind myself of this writing when that discipline of mine is teetering. Maybe just maybe this will help.
If only young Sam could hear me now…
